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[\/et_pb_text][et_pb_blurb title=”In Rome” alt=”distortion-bg” admin_label=”In Rome” _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” header_level=”h2″ background_color=”#321e1e” background_image=”https:\/\/carlamalrowe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/06\/distortion-bg.jpg” background_size=”initial” background_blend=”luminosity” text_orientation=”center” background_layout=”dark” custom_padding=”35px|40px|30px|40px|false|true” link_option_url=”#inrome” border_radii=”on|10px|10px|10px|10px” global_colors_info=”{}”][\/et_pb_blurb][et_pb_blurb title=”Dear Host” alt=”distortion-bg” admin_label=”Dear Host” _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” header_level=”h2″ background_color=”#321e1e” background_image=”https:\/\/carlamalrowe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/06\/distortion-bg.jpg” background_size=”custom” background_image_height=”600px” background_position=”center_right” background_blend=”luminosity” text_orientation=”center” background_layout=”dark” custom_padding=”35px|40px|30px|40px|false|true” link_option_url=”#dearhost” border_radii=”on|10px|10px|10px|10px” global_colors_info=”{}”][\/et_pb_blurb][et_pb_blurb title=”Interlude” alt=”distortion-bg” admin_label=”Interlude” _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” header_level=”h2″ background_color=”#321e1e” background_image=”https:\/\/carlamalrowe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/06\/distortion-bg.jpg” background_size=”custom” background_image_height=”600px” background_position=”top_left” background_blend=”luminosity” text_orientation=”center” background_layout=”dark” custom_padding=”35px|40px|30px|40px|false|true” link_option_url=”#interlude” border_radii=”on|10px|10px|10px|10px” global_colors_info=”{}”][\/et_pb_blurb][et_pb_blurb title=”Missing Circus Freak” alt=”distortion-bg” admin_label=”Missing Circus Freak” _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” header_level=”h2″ background_color=”#321e1e” background_image=”https:\/\/carlamalrowe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/06\/distortion-bg.jpg” background_size=”custom” background_image_height=”760%” background_position=”bottom_right” background_blend=”luminosity” text_orientation=”center” background_layout=”dark” custom_padding=”35px|40px|30px|40px|false|true” link_option_url=”#missing” border_radii=”on|10px|10px|10px|10px” global_colors_info=”{}”][\/et_pb_blurb][et_pb_blurb title=”The Spin Astride” alt=”distortion-bg” admin_label=”The Spin Astride” _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” header_level=”h2″ background_color=”#321e1e” background_image=”https:\/\/carlamalrowe.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/06\/distortion-bg.jpg” background_size=”custom” background_image_height=”500px” background_blend=”luminosity” text_orientation=”center” background_layout=”dark” custom_padding=”35px|40px|30px|40px|false|true” link_option_url=”#thespin” border_radii=”on|10px|10px|10px|10px” global_colors_info=”{}”][\/et_pb_blurb][\/et_pb_column][\/et_pb_row][\/et_pb_section][et_pb_section fb_built=”1″ admin_label=”Popup – #inrome” module_id=”inrome” module_class=”popup on-exit single” _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” background_color=”#373147″ max_width=”600px” custom_padding=”10px|10px|10px|10px|true|true” da_is_popup=”on” da_popup_slug=”inrome” da_is_singular=”on” da_exit_intent=”on” da_disable_devices=”off|off|off” border_radii=”on|15px|15px|15px|15px” global_colors_info=”{}” da_has_close=”on” da_alt_close=”off” da_dark_close=”off” da_not_modal=”on” da_with_loader=”off” da_has_shadow=”on”][et_pb_row _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” global_colors_info=”{}”][et_pb_column type=”4_4″ _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” global_colors_info=”{}”][et_pb_text _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” background_layout=”dark” global_colors_info=”{}”]<\/p>\n
When in Rome I cannot sleep
I lie awake and make-believe
That in the dead of the night
Lovers dry each other’s eyes but in the light,
There\u2019s nothing
And nothing was before.
Still, I spend my hours yearning
For your arms.
For your arms.<\/p>\n
When in Rome I prayed for sleep
For any dream to poison me
For near the breaking of the dawn
Horror whispered horror crawled
Whereas in the light,
There\u2019s nothing
And nothing was before.
Still, I spend my hours yearning
For your arms.<\/p>\n
But then it\u2019s dreams that I am grieving
And water that I\u2019m bleeding
And odd that I still feel, wrong that I still feel
Something at all
In Rome.<\/p>\n
For your arms.
For your arms.
For your arms.<\/p>\n
[\/et_pb_text][\/et_pb_column][\/et_pb_row][\/et_pb_section][et_pb_section fb_built=”1″ admin_label=”Popup – #dearhost” module_id=”dearhost” module_class=”popup on-exit single” _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” background_color=”#373147″ max_width=”920px” custom_padding=”10px|10px|10px|10px|true|true” da_is_popup=”on” da_popup_slug=”dearhost” da_is_singular=”on” da_exit_intent=”on” da_disable_devices=”off|off|off” border_radii=”on|15px|15px|15px|15px” global_colors_info=”{}” da_has_close=”on” da_alt_close=”off” da_dark_close=”off” da_not_modal=”on” da_with_loader=”off” da_has_shadow=”on”][et_pb_row _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” global_colors_info=”{}”][et_pb_column type=”4_4″ _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” global_colors_info=”{}”][et_pb_text _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” background_layout=”dark” global_colors_info=”{}”]<\/p>\n
[\/et_pb_text][\/et_pb_column][\/et_pb_row][et_pb_row column_structure=”1_2,1_2″ _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” custom_padding=”0px||||false|false” global_colors_info=”{}”][et_pb_column type=”1_2″ _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” global_colors_info=”{}”][et_pb_text _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” background_layout=”dark” global_colors_info=”{}”]Would you tear it out of me,
\nTaking everything you need?
\nAnd would I let it out, would I fight?
\nWould it tear me up, alive?<\/p>\n
Would I say it\u2019s time?
\nWould I say it\u2019s time?
\nWould I say now\u2019s the time?
\nOr keep it up,
\nLie and say, \u201cIt\u2019s fine.\u201d<\/p>\n
Alright, alright, if you say so.
\nAlright, alright, if you, if you say so.
\nYour voice, shattering, shattering the windows
\nAlright, alright if you say so.<\/p>\n
I\u2019m alright, but only if you say so.<\/p>\n
Would my demons turn on themselves?
\nWould my words sew up my mouth?
\nWould you lean on me as I crawl?
\nTry to help me up, at all?<\/p>\n
Would my tears drown,
\nWould my tears drown,
\nWould my tears drown the shame?
\nWould I try to walk, try to carry on in vain?[\/et_pb_text][\/et_pb_column][et_pb_column type=”1_2″ _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” global_colors_info=”{}”][et_pb_text _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” background_layout=”dark” global_colors_info=”{}”]Alright, alright, if you say so.
\nAlright, alright, if you, if you say so.
\nYour voice, shattering, shattering the windows
\nAlright, alright if you say so.<\/p>\n
I\u2019m alright, but only if you say so.<\/p>\n
Are you kidding me?
\nIt\u2019s a shiver-kiss.
\nAm I cold enough for this?<\/p>\n
I\u2019m your favourite guest
\nConfined in space, won\u2019t count the days.
\nAnd when we break, and when we\u2019re dead.
\nCould we still pretend?<\/p>\n
Alright, alright, if you say so.
\nAlright, alright, if you, if you say so.
\nYour voice, shattering, shattering the windows
\nAlright, alright if you say so.<\/p>\n
I\u2019m alright, but only if you say so.[\/et_pb_text][\/et_pb_column][\/et_pb_row][\/et_pb_section][et_pb_section fb_built=”1″ admin_label=”Popup – #interlude” module_id=”interlude” module_class=”popup on-exit single” _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” background_color=”#373147″ max_width=”600px” custom_padding=”10px|10px|10px|10px|true|true” da_is_popup=”on” da_popup_slug=”interlude” da_is_singular=”on” da_exit_intent=”on” da_disable_devices=”off|off|off” border_radii=”on|15px|15px|15px|15px” global_colors_info=”{}” da_has_close=”on” da_alt_close=”off” da_dark_close=”off” da_not_modal=”on” da_with_loader=”off” da_has_shadow=”on”][et_pb_row _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” global_colors_info=”{}”][et_pb_column type=”4_4″ _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” global_colors_info=”{}”][et_pb_text _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” background_layout=”dark” global_colors_info=”{}”]<\/p>\n
Get over it\u2026 It\u2019s over.[\/et_pb_text][\/et_pb_column][\/et_pb_row][\/et_pb_section][et_pb_section fb_built=”1″ admin_label=”Popup – #missing” module_id=”missing” module_class=”popup on-exit single” _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” background_color=”#373147″ max_width=”920px” custom_padding=”10px|10px|10px|10px|true|true” da_is_popup=”on” da_popup_slug=”missing” da_is_singular=”on” da_exit_intent=”on” da_disable_devices=”off|off|off” border_radii=”on|15px|15px|15px|15px” global_colors_info=”{}” da_has_close=”on” da_alt_close=”off” da_dark_close=”off” da_not_modal=”on” da_with_loader=”off” da_has_shadow=”on”][et_pb_row _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” global_colors_info=”{}”][et_pb_column type=”4_4″ _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” global_colors_info=”{}”][et_pb_text _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” background_layout=”dark” global_colors_info=”{}”]<\/p>\n
[\/et_pb_text][\/et_pb_column][\/et_pb_row][et_pb_row column_structure=”1_2,1_2″ _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” custom_padding=”0px||||false|false” global_colors_info=”{}”][et_pb_column type=”1_2″ _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” global_colors_info=”{}”][et_pb_text _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” background_layout=”dark” global_colors_info=”{}”]It\u2019s the devil in your little light heart.
\nYour insincerity.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s your friends who applaud
\nYour sweet insensitivity.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s the wave of your hand.
\nIt\u2019s your flair for neglect.
\nIt\u2019s the fact that I can\u2019t let it go.<\/p>\n
And the chance that the star of my show,
\nWas frightened away by you.<\/p>\n
Haven\u2019t you seen?
\nHaven\u2019t you seen?
\nHaven\u2019t you seen?
\nHaven\u2019t you seen?
\nHaven\u2019t you seen him?<\/p>\n
It\u2019s the ribbon from which we must swing
\nHeld up by a safety pin.<\/p>\n
How we swallow the knives, how we burn as we fly
\nThrough the fire rings.[\/et_pb_text][\/et_pb_column][et_pb_column type=”1_2″ _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” global_colors_info=”{}”][et_pb_text _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” background_layout=”dark” global_colors_info=”{}”]It\u2019s that sickening game called
\n\u201cSuppress to Sustain\u201d.
\nIt\u2019s your cathartic dreams, in vain.<\/p>\n
And the chance that the star of my show,
\nWas frightened away by you.<\/p>\n
Haven\u2019t you seen?
\nHaven\u2019t you seen?
\nHaven\u2019t you seen?
\nHaven\u2019t you seen?
\nHaven\u2019t you seen him?<\/p>\n
It\u2019s my fury, my loss, my in(sin)sanity.
\nIt\u2019s my friends who are begging me
\nTo call off the search party.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s among you,
\nA ghost in costume.<\/p>\n
Haven\u2019t you seen?
\nHaven\u2019t you seen?
\nHaven\u2019t you seen?
\nHaven\u2019t you seen?
\nHaven\u2019t you seen him?[\/et_pb_text][\/et_pb_column][\/et_pb_row][\/et_pb_section][et_pb_section fb_built=”1″ admin_label=”Popup – #thespin” module_id=”thespin” module_class=”popup on-exit single” _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” background_color=”#373147″ max_width=”920px” custom_padding=”10px|10px|10px|10px|true|true” da_is_popup=”on” da_popup_slug=”thespin” da_is_singular=”on” da_exit_intent=”on” da_disable_devices=”off|off|off” border_radii=”on|15px|15px|15px|15px” global_colors_info=”{}” da_has_close=”on” da_alt_close=”off” da_dark_close=”off” da_not_modal=”on” da_with_loader=”off” da_has_shadow=”on”][et_pb_row _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” global_colors_info=”{}”][et_pb_column type=”4_4″ _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” global_colors_info=”{}”][et_pb_text _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” background_layout=”dark” global_colors_info=”{}”]<\/p>\n
[\/et_pb_text][\/et_pb_column][\/et_pb_row][et_pb_row column_structure=”1_2,1_2″ _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” custom_padding=”0px||||false|false” global_colors_info=”{}”][et_pb_column type=”1_2″ _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” global_colors_info=”{}”][et_pb_text _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” background_layout=”dark” global_colors_info=”{}”]You\u2019ve been spinning and spinning
\nAnd spinning astride your own grave.
\nThe funeral planning is dragging
\nIt drags on for days.<\/p>\n
The petals and petals and petals and sand,
\nStaining my hands.
\nThink it\u2019s time, that I threw them away.<\/p>\n
And there is no life dear.
\nNo there is no life after death.
\nThe term in itself is a joke,
\nIt\u2019s an ironic mess.<\/p>\n
And grief comes full circle it spirals
\nAnd puts a nice new spin on loneliness.
\nThink it\u2019s time that
\nThat I gave it a rest.<\/p>\n
That I put it to rest.
\nThat I put it to rest.[\/et_pb_text][\/et_pb_column][et_pb_column type=”1_2″ _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” global_colors_info=”{}”][et_pb_text _builder_version=”4.21.0″ _module_preset=”default” background_layout=”dark” global_colors_info=”{}”]The shiver-show curtain
\nIs drawing behind my back.
\nThe scene has no ending they\u2019re cutting
\nThey\u2019ve cut straight to black.<\/p>\n
The waiting and waiting and waiting is mad.
\nWhen will it end?
\nThink it\u2019s time that
\nThat I gave it a rest.<\/p>\n
I wrote you a story
\nIn which I starve to death.
\nLocked in a room with the key
\nBuried safe in your hand.
\nYour coat on my shoulders,
\nThe warming nostalgia
\nI\u2019m done with that.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s time that I gave it a rest.<\/p>\n
That I put you to rest.
\nThat I put you to rest.[\/et_pb_text][\/et_pb_column][\/et_pb_row][\/et_pb_section]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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